a day long yesterday finally ENDED!
:)
as i said, me and my friends skip APEL and headed straight for lunch and also,STUDY BTM after that.
went to the lib, and yah, study.
went for the test.
which is kind of ok. think i will lose out at the theory part. cos my calculation part almost the same as my friend.
:)
so kind of ok.
if i can get 16% out of 20 for this 40 marks test, then i will be happy!
but a good pass for me will be fine too.
:)

by the way, RUOQI in the 9pm show on channel 8.HE'S VERY DAMN HANDSOME LAH!
saw him last week though on thurs while in MARINE PARADE.. CAROL. he's so handsome right!
haha.

aww. there's school later.
PLUS. 3 tutorials.
arghhh. life is so sian.
gona start on my MA for next mon. if not im dead meat soon.
=/

got to go.
till then, ciaos!
:)


the way things were done. im quite satisfied.
enough of CRAPS.
i know i never blog for three days.
so...

CAMPUS CARE NETWORK DAY

the day that everyone waiting for(is it?)
the day where DON'T HAVE ANY SCH?(is it)
the day where students from the 5 schools, decide to shout and see whose the loudest?
and the day where everyone just drop down their hair and PLAY AND HAVE FUN?
and the day where we contribute to the charity.
hur.
i had fun. HAVE FUN.
really
maybe its the last year for me.
:)
haha.

Last thurs was pretty fun at rebeka HOSTEL.
haha.
:)
remember how we tease some people.
haha.
WELL! FUN LAH.

im stress with my test later on.
i feel like bursting out into tears SOON!
i shall skip APEL today.
i know im bad.
but i really still wana study.
STRESS.
next week also.
i know i could do it. but i still feel i can't.
cos i really feel so inferior right now.
sighh.
got to go.

till then. ciaos.


sometimes, its better to read and study, than u never read and study at all.
u all should understand what i mean.
besides, theres 8 question which i forgotten what is it and i just anyhow ti kam and do, resulting in FAIL(u can't have more than 5 question wrong)
haha.
this one fail, still can take during the hols.
but not SCH!
heng, this one not school work.if not i will just cry for you to see.
but neither am i sad or upset or disappointed.
but then i sort of more relieve THAN UPSET, COS i expect myself to fail.haha.
nvm, next time. maybe i need more logic and common sense.
and maybe more luck.
and don't ask me why i failed it since most of them say is common sense and quite easy to pass, i will just tell u i didn't study for it.
want to take, study ba.
but prolly is the 8 qn that i don't know how to ans kills me.
but then.it's over and i expect myself to fail somemore.
so.haha.
and neither did my friend make it too.
sooo.
morale of story, READ MORE AND STUDY MORE!
nvm, take again during the hols.

5 of june is my MANAGERIAL ACCOUNTING 1 PAPER.
8 of june is my CALCULUS PAPER
9 of june is my CREDIT AND ADMIN PAPER AND SECURITY ANALYSIS AND PORTFOILIO MANAGEMENT.
12 of june is my FINANCIAL ANALYSIS PAPER.

with this MONDAY, 29 OF MAY- BANK TREASURY MANAGEMENT!

faints of 9 of june.
but im glad that calculus is an open book exam.
so naturally.
hee. JUST PRACTICE.
SINCE I GOT BREAK IN BETWEEN.

but why must they put the CAC and SAPM on the same day.
and my seat number for SAPM is NUMBER 1.
arghhhh.
i hate to seat in front.
but at least i wouldn't be that stress.
i hate to be in the exam hall, when those sitting in front of you was scribbling away, while u don't have any more things to write.
that's me, maybe it will make me more stress ba.
haha.
don't know.

whatever it is, i gona work hard.
very hard.
my A'S.
i hope.
and nus(WHICH IS EVEN MORE FAT HOPE FOR ME)
LOLX!

till then, ciaos.


im on the verge of breaking down soon.
arghhh

i really feel like crying

no way am i going to cry or what!
im gona be happy and happy and happy.

grumbles.

all the schoolwork is making me stress up for no reason though there must be some reasons.
awww. what sentence is this?

i need a break.
i need a break.
i need a break.

arghhhhhhhhhh.

and MID SEM TEST TIMETABLE OUT!
soooo fast....

grumbles.
i know lah.
im having moodswing.

arghhhhhhhhhhh


oh no.
tmr BTT.
and i haven even like study for it?
i gona pass or am i gona fail.
i left it to god already.
shall mug tonight though.

sigh

i miss half of my BTM lect yesterday cause i went to attend my calculus lect.
omg. the monday lect was so full of ppl you know?
i don't know why my friday usual lect slot like erm. so few?
i don't know lah.
anyway, differentiation.
die liao lah. i gona study like mad next week

next mon BTM test.
hope i can make it.
:)
hope.
please.

MASS REVISION COMING UP NEXT WEEK AND THIS WEEK.
oh no. stress.

got to go.
got class at 9am.
grumbles.
:)
ciaos!!


Win liao lor
my mum going to Shangri-La Rasa Sentosa Resort HOTEL(is it spelt like that anyway) FOR WEDDING DINNER.
ok, fine. enough of grumbles.

later got school.
roars.
later got calulus lect, got btm lect, got sapm tut, got apel 3.
roars.
im mad and stress.
i hate projects.
who like it?
but i dislike to stress people.
hm.
enjoy life. before u can't enjoy it anymore, am i right?

=/
anyway, i think i gona do something about my comp before its going to be filled with games.
i don't understand my BROTHER!
:(
he can played the comp as if the comp will be alive for 24 hours which i think so.
DOTA, MAPLE.
arghhh
i gona get a gun and shoot him soon if he doesn't listen to me next time WHEN I NEED TO DO MY THINGS!!

oh well. let me grumble. u know girls like to grumble right?
awww.. ahhhh.
i hate this week and next week.
and i bet i will try to study my BTM by this thurs.
next week got test!!
:(

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
ok. fine. i finish grumbling.
:)

till then, ciaos!


arghh
:(

next week i hate it.
fri got ccn day.
then my lect will be changed to WED.
but wed from 4-6 i got tutorial how to go?
ARGH!!
:(

then MONDAY- i got lect from 3-5
but the lect will be from 2-4.
what should i do?
i hate to make decision.
arghhh
:(

let me think.

yesterday, school. then after lect, went to eat with my friends.
then after that, went back school, and wh msg me and ask me wana go shop?
then i say ok.
wh drove to Marina Square.
and its been a while i have been there.
i wana buy lots of things next week lah.
haha.

then she drove me back to school for my lect.
thanks girl.
:)

oh well
in school now!!
sighh!!





school!
school!
school!

shoo.
oh how nice.

hah.
later school at 9am.
with 5 hours break in between.
i don't know what should i do.
hm.

well.
tired still as usual.
can't wait for weekends to come!!
:)

ciaos then!


ahhhh
im stress.
i know im having stress right now.

i slept like log head yesterday night.
TIRED.
when i wake up this morning at 6.30am, im still feeling TIRED!
when can this tiredness GO AWAY?
even when jp msg me, i didn't even know until today morning.

I HATE PROJECTS.
I HATE MYSELF.
I HATE TEST AND EXAMS.

shooo.
go away everything.

the short that i bought it like 2 weeks ago, i can't wear it!
what is wrong?
need to go on diet le.
i though i bought it for myself for a little pamper for myself, and now. . .
nvm, give it to my sis lor.
i go buy another one!!
:)
heh.

okok.
enough of grumbling.

got to go sch.
GRUMBLES again..
awwwww..


i dislike to talk bad about people
but there bound to be some people that makes me so irritated.
so yah, thats why they are the certain people that will make me talk bad about them.
understand?

i know im being bad.
so i shall not say bad things or gossip about them.
alright.
i promise.

oh well.

sch as usual
getting more and more bored by school.
especially when im in lect.
i simply couldn't understand
well.nvm, mass revision coming soon.

slept at 9pm plus yesterday.
lazy ME!!
:(

well.
got to go already.
:)

later school at 11.


i know i haven blog for days.
but then here i am.

thurs-
sch, as usual. heh.
watch VCD-DA CHANG JIN in the night till my PLAYER ON SMOKE.
TOTALLY SPOILT.
my dad got to perform an operation on the player. hah.

having a public holiday last fri, vesak day.
:)
praying in the afternoon. slept for the afternoon.
hahs
do my tuts in the night.
went to courts with my parents and sister.
:)
bought a tv and new dvd player but should i called it a HI-5 set?
i don't know

sat- went to bedok a finance company.
with my mum.
put in the fix deposit.
well, then have breakfast at the hawker centre there.
:)
took 69 to sch.
meet my friends.
and to the squash court.
:)
well. hah
have fun lah.
then went to do tutorial.
having cramps all of the sudden in the lib.
girls should know.
well, came home and rest.
:)
suppose to meet my friends.
btw, DAN. if u r reading this, what number are u using now?

SUN- mother's day.
happy mother's day yeah?
well, still did my work and stuff.

i have been tagged.
:)
asking me to do a quiz.
-.-
i have done it before?
so i decide to
heh.
1) accepts me for who i am and WHAT I AM. [but try changing me. cos my character is totally shake head]. contractdicting huh?
2) comfortable with him and vice versa
3) understand me more than anyone else
4) Sweet as well as romantic..
5) able to ta-han maybe my boring ness and also my crap maybe.
6) don't have to be handsome, rich, taller than me etc. cos maybe love is blind?is it true?
7) able to cheer me up when i am down.
8) last but not least,faithful and HE MUST NOT SMOKE

i have done. haha

well.
till then, ciaos.
:)


:)
tmr public holiday!

i didn't do the tutorial today.
feel a bit eh, don't know how to describe.
:(
but then. hopefully i will do all CAC tutorial soon.

stayed back in sch and discuss proj.
its killing, alright?
:(

thanks wh for the ride home today and yesterday.
if not i think by the time i squeeze in the bus, i would have reached home by don't know what time.
:)

well, im busy right now.
i didn't know what is called time now.
enjoyment now
i only know what is stress now.
i need enjoyment.
i wana do shopping.

the tears will stop
the rain will stop.
and the rainbow will appear soon.
u don't need to know whom im telling to.
but she should know who she is.

im tired, real tired.
i will try to finish up some tutorial but i think im not going to feel well soon.
sighh.
alright!

gtg already.
happy weekends.
and holiday ppl.

now let me see the stockmarket.
hah.
bye.


im a failure.
a truly failure

nothing much happen.
MONDAY when i reach home, my aunts(from my dad side) went home le.
:)
they came over to my house again. thats why my mum wipe up dishes.hee.not really lot though.

yesterday have three tut.
for calculus, i did careless mistakes.
i hate myself for this.

then for the other 2, still alright.
:)
now im tired.
but i don't know why too.

i dislike my friends to be upset or unhappy
i rather im the one instead.
but NOPE!
:(
i can't stop everything or what
or let alone time to turn back

breaking up hurts a lot.
but we don't know what to say already.
u must help urself.
i hope that you will be fine soon.
hope.

i can only pray for time to let everyone on earth to learn how to become more stronger.

i know what is wrong with me now- im stress.

i hate it right now.
oh im hungry now.
ahhh. food here i come.
but i can't sleep
ahhh.
help lah.

later sch starts at 11, ends at 6.
:(

now is already wed morning.
hungry and don't feel like sleeping deduan say good night to all of you first.
NITE!
:)

may dreams turn out to be true to all of you.
tomorrow will be a better day!
:)


the once in every 5 year election is over on sat
and pasir ris is won by pap.

we were watching the election result via tv on saturday night in my room.
while the tv in the living room was switch to DA CHANG JIN VCD.
my mum who for the first time so addicted to the show,cos when the show was on channel u, she say she watch cos she wana listen to the music at the end of the show.
>.<
so my dad is the poor thing. got to rush in from the living room to my room whenever there's result to be announce.
we didn't miss any part.
and when the opposition win the two oldguards that they were guarding.
and when the tv flash their victory, you should see how hougang and potong pasir residents were and the stadium and almost everywhere!!
:)

a once in every 5 year scene.
why should we miss.
the close fight between pap and wp in aljunied.
the percentage, the shoutings.
even my friends said, their blocks there also got people shouting and cheering and clapping. haha let's wait for another 5 years for this type of scene to appear again!
:)

or maybe don't need. june-world cup maybe can le.
haha. therefore, that night i slept close to 2 something. and im proud that im following the news of the election though it doesn't concern me when i can't even vote yet.
and i like all the excitment of wherever i go, ppl would start talking about election in the bus,mrt etc. talking abt the poster.
though they knew who would be the big winner in the end.
82-2 no difference from the past.
whatever, maybe we should see whether they will be a change in 5 years time election.
>.<

On sat afternoon, everywhere we go, its full of people.
one of the reason is sat.
the other reason is polling day.
most people were off.
we ate out lunch and went shopping at Parkway.
:)
bought a necklace for myself.
hm.
came home and just slack and watch the election result.
nothing much for SAT!

On sun, as usual, the PAP were having trips in Pasir ris,not only Pasir ris ba, punggol and sengkang too,thanking the residents for their support.
hee.
then we slack at home and i did my tutorials and freak, i woke up at 10 plus.
:)
then at night, my mum didn't cook, cos she and my dad were to be attending wedding dinner of some distant relative at Marina Mandarin hotel...
well,so i went to do my tutorial. while my siblings just study...

later class at 10-5.
im so tired lah!!!!!!!
:(


its raining heavily now.
theres police car and police at the primary sch near my house.
that's one of the voting centre.
my mum and dad will be going there to vote eh.

well. a lot of ppl have already said why bother to vote when we know obviously who's going to win.hm.
and past 9days have been frantic for all the candidates of all parties involve eh.
see how they win the hearts of Singaporeans who's going to vote today then.
10pm......we will know.

later celebrating lq bday.
hm.
happy bday to you!!
:)

[rain rain go away]


the story abt a girl and guy.
might goes like this.

the guy likes the girl.
the girl likes the guy.
FULL STOP.
all the happy times between them were never been destroyed.
and they will be together forever.if there is.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
another one might goes like this.
while the guy likes the girl.
and the girl likes the the guy.
the guy go and likes another girl.
this guy heart is make of what right now?
if u like the girl. just be with her. and don't have to make all the promises which turns out to be empty.
and i don't think she deserve this kind of treatment from you after all this times.
and i really really really don't think she deserve to get HURT by you after all this while.
you say it easy. she might be strong and will be strong cos she have us.

HELLO- u said it easy. but saying it is easier than getting it done.
after all this while with u. u think that it's so easy to put down everything.
i know you are also feeling sad. but who is the most sad person on earth right now?
BOTH OF YOU!
why u destroyed the girl wonderful times with you.
why. just because of another girl who appear in front of you.
i know i shouldn't say anything bad about you.
but its just that all the promises that u gave her becomes empty.
u will love her forever.
u will . . .

all this becomes empty.
a simple i don't have any more feelings for you.
just detroyed everything.
the hopes for future.
the hopes of being with u forever.
the hopes of everything.
now- it become nothing.
and im not angry or disappointed.
but im just trying to write out how i have felt for the past few days and last week.
everyone of us never ever seen her being so sad before.
i rather she be with another guy who can give her all the hopes and dreams.
and i rather she recover to the girl that we have known before.
she will be fine soon i hope.

to the girl- u don't deserve to like someone like this.
u deserve someone even better.
god wants you to find another guy who knows how to cares and loves you.
not some people who knows how to hurt you.
there's still a long way to your whole life.
time- that is what u need now.
:)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
yesterday, i wana go to the rally at the pasir ris park there.
then while i was walking there, theres was like lightning. hm.
then i just walked home then.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
anyway,
i just reached home from sch.
tired.
well. im super pleased with my schoolwork so far.
maybe becos the projects haven started yet. next week gona start le.
hai.
im not going to give myself stress this time round.
anyway. im not proud of myself at time. maybe i have this inferior genes in me!
whaha.
anyway, life have been ok so far. except some twist and turn here and there.
but i should be beginning to pick up myself from these.

i just cut finish the election thingy card that was posted to my parents on don't know which day to inform them about where they were allocated to cast their votes.
election tmr.
while i think my mum already meeting her friends to go to the place where they were allocated tmr.anyway, its only walking distance.
and my dad was kidding that day that he shall step into the voting centre at 7.59pm when the voting ends at 8pm.
haha.
i was laughing that day too.
i don't think he will lah.
lol.

anyway. 10pm shall stick to the result!!!!
hm.

till then ciaos.
im pretty tired too.
everyone is.

:)

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